My last breath as the sun rises.

God that is a depressing title. Granted I'm fucking tired. God i'm tired. I have been awake a long time and spent the larger part of the day in front of the computer. Is this what it feels like to be a person that networks with such fervor? This is fucking ridiculous. God it's crazy. I'm so delirious. It's a headache that wont go away. At least the Beatles are on. I don't care care what you say red line it's the name you fuckers!

This is my last place to go. The place I come when things are just meaningful in my life. Fuck I never thought I would actually feel this good about a video. It sells me well. What do you think? For some reason Blogger means more.

Any who here is the link to the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VkShd-yy-0M

Here is a link to the voting page: http://www.worldtravelerintern.com/member/sidney-raskind/

The Facebook Group: http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=339557430237&ref=nf

All that...dear god it was hard. A lot harder then I thought it would be. I feel like I did a lot today. Man it was intense.

ok...i don't want to see the sunrise.

Good night.

Dilldo

Alphabet Survey meme thing...

A
- Available: Nope
- Age: 20(21 in 11 days!)
- Annoyances: Open mouth gum chewers
- Afternoons or mornings: Afternoon cause that's when I wake up
B
- Best Friend: Elizabeth and Nappi
- Beer: PBR please
- Birthday: Nov. 30th
- Best month: May I don't know why but I thought May
- Best day:Wednesday(comics) and Saturday

C
- Crush: Indeed
- Candy: CRUNCH BARS
- Colour: Red
- Chocolate or Vanilla: Always Chocolate
- Criminal Record: none

D
- Day or Night: Night
- Dream Vehicle: VW Bus
- Dream: Work with Comics

E
- Easiest Person To Talk To: A stranger
- Eggs: Sunny Sidue up
- End of the line: Blows
F
- First Crush: Caitlin Saner
- Fuck vs Feck: Fuckin....
- Fave piece of clothing: T-Shirt
- Fave song atm: San. Fransisco Dreaming
- Future: Really Hard to tell
G
- Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Da Bears
- Giver or Taker: Taker. I'm not good at giving things
- Greatest moment in life: 789 Gathering
- Gold or Silver: Gold

H
- Hair: Mullet (atm)
- Happy: Yeah
- Hat: Lately Yes
- Hugs: I'm down

I
- Ice Cream: Mint Chocolate Chip
- Instrument: Tap Shoes
- Is there anything you would tell yourself 3 years ago: Awkward month will go away and it will get a lot better
- Invisible for a Day: Totes
J
- Jewellry : Necklace my father gave me
- Job: Campus Rep...not really though
- Jeans: All I wear

K
- Kids: I like to think so
- King for the day: National Superman Day
L
- Lie ins: Never done it
- Longest Car Ride: 12 hours straight
- Life: I'm in it

M
- Milk Flavor: Milk
- Music: What's on?
N
- Number Of Siblings: 3
- Number : 565
- Note to self: You hotty

O
- One Wish: To fall in a vat of chemical waste and gain special abilities
- One song: Billy Jean
- One love: TimTams
P
- Part Of Your Personality That You Like: Taking to people
- Physical Feature on yourself you like: My butt
- Physical Feature on opposite sex you like: Their Butt
Q
- Quick or Slow: Oh baby?
- Queen for the day: Call the Gays!
R
Reason 2 Smile: FaceFace
Reason 2 Cry: End of where the Red Fern Grows
Rolos vs Refreshers: Rolos

S
Song You Last Heard: Matisyahu King with out a crown
Song You Are Hearing: Jimmy Two Shoes music

T
- Tattoo: Kryptonian Letters
- Time For Bed: Sleep? What's that?
- Time of Birth: 2 or 3 am
- Treat: TimTam Slam

U
- Useless: Eyebrow
- Unusual: Me
- Umbrella or hood: Hood

V
- Vegetable You Hate: Okra
- Vegetable You Love: Tomatoes
- Vertigo: Not a good song

W
- Worst Habits: Not planing things
- Worst Day: To long to list
- Worst Person: Hitler?
- Worst thing you own: Double Ended Dill
- Why?: Why not?
X
- X-Rays: They are cool to look at
- Xylophone: Only word I can think of that starts with X
Y
- Year It Is Now: 2009
- Yellow: Rangers was a Guy in Japan
Z
- Zoo Animal: Lion
- Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius

Naw

After posting the prank on Times Square I would like to say that I have been proven wrong. I am not as crazy big as I thought I was going to be.

Here I am again

I think that only one person out of anyone who reads this blog will get it. I'm not even sure what I'm about to write or why. It is currently 5:40 in the am and I Sidney Bernard Raskind am about to cry. I know why but I can't admit it even to myself.

Things that I am scared of:

1) not knowing what or who I am.
2) looking back on my life and seeing all the mistakes I have made and not being able to fix them at all.
3) Ending up like my father, alone with a family that dislikes him and bridges burned to all hell.
4) That high school was the prime time of my life

I just looked back on my past and started to cry. Only a little bit. Now I am done.

It must be when it gets so early in the morning without sleep that I get like this. Also when I make contact with something that I haven't thought about in a really long time. Completely tried to forget even. Blocked off networking sites to make my life easier.

I fucking hate when i get like this. The sun is rising and it's a new day. I just remembered all the things that are good in my life now.

I'm so fucking bi-polar sometimes it's ridiculous. Is there a pill for that?

P.S. I'm still wearing all my clothes from yesterday. Fully. Why don't i put on PJs when I get home? Why don't I get comfortable? I don't get it as much as Kristen doesn't. Am I odd?

Next time you can, crap with the door open

I tend to write the blogs before the title. I think that is a good way of doing it. I just thought you should know.

I have just spent the last 30 minutes or so reading Nappi's blog and then Kristen's. Two important people in my life right now. Both people that I care about and one of which is on my phone as the back round. (not Nappi, sorry man I love ya but that would be to gay) Moving on!

What are you moving on from though?
I don't know. Do you?
No, that's why I asked you cause you were the one that said it.
Ah, well...ok then.
So you really don't know what else there is do you?
...No, sorry.
Whatever, it's your blog.
Well thanks!
Anytime, btw Billy Mays died.
What!?!
Yeah I know.
I never did use oxy-clean. Well I'm sure the 5 people that had a fetish for him will miss him. His family too.

Has everyone here seen "Office Space"? If not then i think you are missing something from your life. Yesterday I laid in what is my bed(the couch) all day. Really. I didn't leave my apartment and I slept for a lot of the day. Not unlike the main character from that great movie. Well the difference is that I have felt like I have done nothing BUT that for a long time now. I know others that have done the same. It's not hard but it's not fullfilling either. I'm a bum with a roof over my heard and some food.

That was such a pointless blog post. God I hate that.

Costume change

For anyone that wanted to know, I'm wearing an assortment of cloths that I haven't worn since high school. Red freshman year track shirt with cargo shorts and my XC shoes from senior year. Now this might not be important, but to me it is and here is why:

1) I remember the way I was in high school and looked at myself with a distaste for my hair. I didn't like the hair cause it didn't look good with what I'm wearing. I looked better with shorter hair then. With what I wear and look like now, I know that myself then would have thought differently from myself now. It's a weird feeling to know that you of the past might not like you if you knew you now. Very SLC Punk.

2) I was told that I looked like i was in costume by a college counselor and my favorite English teacher when I visited after the semester was over. Now I know why. What I'm wearing now is a costume in itself. It sets the tone for a different person. The outfit I'm wearing puts me in the likes of runners and people like my brother. So I can see why the outfit I wore to that visit might confuse a lot of people. My costume then was a lot different from what I look like now.

Those are the only reasons I can think of right now. That's why it is important to me. I just realized a few things when I looked in the mirror and had to write it.

Crotch Head WOLVERIENES!!!

After reading my good friends blog I was inspired to write. I'm not sure what about though.

I just got it. Time and how quickly it passes me by. I woke up today with no idea of when or how i fell asleep. I was woken up by my alarm clock and today was the first time I actually got up to turn it off. I didn't go back to sleep and usually I sleep for two more hours.

Over the past month I have been to NY and back I have been back to Vienna and I have been all around Richmond. I do that last one on a day to day though so it's not that big of a deal. I have smoked a lot of weed and I have stopped smoking a lot of weed. That isn't the greatest auto-biography I know but in the words of Nappi, "you can go to hell."

So why did i tell you all that? Well just because it has been a month! What?! I don't know how time does it but it passes by real quick sometimes. Just a year ago I was in Vienna starting my job at AMC and in a relationship that was for lack of a better term, doomed.

Where did that year fucking go? That's what I want to know.

Just recently i have noticed this time passing by thing. It freaks me out. It freaks me out so much that when i look at the clock I see it as a later time because I know that it is going to be later before I know it. I have no way of stopping it. One thing that I have realized though, days come and go faster then I used to think. It's insane.

On another note, I played in the rain yesterday. I had a lot of fun. I was with four people and they all thought i was crazy. I think secretly though, they wanted to play. It was pouring down with lighting and everything. Like I said, good times.

Time passes by to quick for you not to do that kind of thing. I'm 20 years old with a life ahead of me but I still feel like I have to play and do stupid things because I'm going to be a whole lot older soon. It's the way I see it. It freaks me out.

I wanted to play so I did. Who wants to join me?